why don't you go blog about it?

so.
i came to a slight epiphany today.
...with help from my awesome boyfriend.
that i'm a bum.


not that kind of bum.

pervert.

try again.

bingo!
that's the one.

well, he pointed out that:

i am currently in between apartments.
...since i'm moving to la.
...and therefore can't sign a lease here.

i don't have a dependable car.
...because older grand ams suck ass.
...plain and simple

i don't have a working phone.
...because i never received the iphone i ordered.
...and am currently processing a claim with amex.

and don't have a computer.
...because the $1400 mac i bought last september.
...got swiped 6 weeks later.

and i don't have a job.
...though i do play lots of shows.
...and make rather decent money.

okay, so that last one isn't so bad.
i'm sure we'd all love to make good money.
from the one thing we love most in this world.
and i'm one of those lucky people.
so i should be thankful.

and i am.
i'm not the type of person.
to be held down by circumstance.
i'm not a girl who dreams.
but won't allow them to be realized.

i don't get hung up on what is normal.
or typical.
or expected.

so what if i don't have a phone.
or a car.
or a "job".

i have more than most people.

i have love.
and passion.
and a strange feeling of satisfaction.
because i don't have to be anything.
that i don't want to be.
and not everyone can contend.
that they, in fact, are this lucky.

:)